Bubble Town

Not a Diary entry!

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Tuesday, May 6th, 2008 1:57am

So it’s true… I did two tests and it’s defiantly true. Although I did go to the doctor’s like 3 weeks ago to get checked and it came out negative. Howie said he thinks I’m already 2months in. Which could totally be true because I haven’t had my period since what? end of February? I’m constantly tired. Partly to blame because of staying up so late/early. My nipples are so tender and I barely fit the new bras I just got two weeks ago. I mean seriously… pregnancy made me jump from a B to a D cup… And it’s like 24/7 PMS or something so headachey and dizzy and annoyed. At least I don’t have morning sickness… yet & hopefully ever.

I don’t know what I’m thinking… I can’t bare to give it up for adoption. It’s like in Juno? so weird… and I can’t go through another abortion. Yes I had an abortion last year like end of June. It was okay. I was good for a week and then I emotionally broke-down and the worst part was that I was miles away from home at a summer program.

So abortion adoption keep it? Like that would be easy? My mom just threatened to kill herself the other day if I got pregnant & didn’t get an abortion! Ohs you must be thinking what a horrible mother, once is enough right? But the first time she didn’t even know that I was & had an abortion. She was all angry and she said she didn’t want people to “wipe shit all over her face” (that’s an expression in our language meaning to spread rumors about and ruin your reputation).

But I do want to keep it, and Howie does too. I think mom just has some issues because my so-called father left her when she got pregnant, and she values her reputation which is already damaged because she is a single mother of two children with different fathers, and apparently I’m the only one who has a good reputation. People always call me the smart & well behaved one, yet they also say I’m not that pretty.

I don’t know what to do… all I can do now is pray I find a soft spot somewhere in between two rocks.

Thursday, June 24th, 2004

11:06 pm

The boat cruise was great. At first no one was dancing ‘cept the teachers. Then Amzey started to dance and then everyone else joined in. I didn’t slow dance. Oh my, Chris in 8-2 has a pepsi and he was shaking it so I kept saying do it. I wanted him to open it on the side of the boat so that it would fizz. But from behind us it looked and sounded like nasty because it looked like her was masturbating.

Yesterday I went to school and only four people in my class came. Me, Thrashiika, Matt and Alex M. Sad, eh? But for three periods I was on the computer. In the afternoon, me & Sally went to Sir Watson High. We went to the office to call down Jenny but the staff was like only parents and guardians can call students down. It was a waste of time, money, and bus tickets.

After going, me and Sally went straight home. At 4:30 or 5:00 I went swimming at the community pool. I stayed til 6:40 or something. Remember Kyle? I’m going out with him. I left the pool to go with him to his practice for hockey or something like hockey.

In the pool he was holding me so close that trough our clothes I felt his penis! And when he was holding me up by my ass he squeezed it (both cheeks)! And when he was hugging me from behind, his hands were moving up and up. So I said, “No, that’s off limits.” And he was like, “What, your boobs?” And when he was leaving he asked me for a kiss. Then I asked, “here?” and he was like lips and said but it would be a wet kiss, a very wet kiss. So I said when we get out. He said ok. We got out and outside near the front entrance, he started to kiss me on the neck and shoulders. Then later Amy L was across the street and she yelled Hi Tina to me. And when me & Kyle were walking to the place where his practice was, we were holding hands and I think I saw Jeff C! And he was looking at me weird but I didn’t say hi or anything.

At Kyle’s practice he was trying very hard to get goals. And like in between periods we would kiss and stuff. He almost gave me a wedgy but he said he wouldn’t. We were frenching and making out. When I left he told me to come today to the pool. I’m coming but I’m not going to swim because I have my period! So I’ll just ask if he just wants to hang out.

Later

1:18pm

I got a message from Sally at 5:05pm yesterday. She couldn’t come but she told me if I go today call her so that she could come, so I will.

Monday, June 21st, 2004

11:42 pm

Let me tell you about yesterday before I talk about today. Yesterday at temple, we went for a picnic. I had lots of fun. Lillian and Devin (baby twins) were there. A seagull pooped on my shoulder! (Double ewww!)

Now today was fun too! Today is ABORIGINAL DAY. The whole school went on a field trip to there. I felt totally ditched by Sally. That’s why I hung out with Dorthy for the rest of the time. The best part about the trip was walking back. This is what happened. When my class started to walk back, I saw the ice cream trolly so me and Mr.L bought some ice cream. Then I gave Dorthy a bite. Minh then asked for a bite so I gave him some. Then Alex W. asked for a bite so I gave him some. Then Nerels asked so I gave him some. Minh got a second bite.

So I was walking with them and Minh looked over at Johny and asked if he masturbates, saying something about how it makes “it” smaller. Then they asked me if I knew what an organism was. So I told them it was the high point of sex. Then Nerels was telling us about this short-cut and Mr.L saw us but ran. And there was these crazy stairs we had to go up. Minh was saying last one up has lots of cock to suck and he turned around and looked at me saying, “That’s you,Tina.” So I ran up the stairs. After the stairs we went on Main St. and to Minh’s Dad’s poutine truck. And when we got to school they were all bragging about it.

After school I went swimming at the community pool for free. It was so fun. Tiffany was there and so was Tamarra. I saw Darrick there. He was like so touchy. He touched my ass and waist. And there were tons of people from the nearby schools. This guy Kyle from another school was like picking me up and tickling me. When he left I gave him a hug so he would get soaked. And plus he was hott. Jeff was there. He told me to tell Sally to come next time. Oh IT WAS THE BEST. BECAUSE it was the first time I went on a diving board. And there was this rope thing. I’m going back there next Tuesday.

Okay I’m so excited about tomorrow, the boat cruise and everything. I got to go to sleep because the batteries on my alarm clock is dead. I got to wake up at 6 am.